Heyya fellas. It’s been a while.
I haven’t posted here in a while and for good reason and so I am going to use that as a topic to write on! So 2020 was a weird year for me. It started with anxious thoughts of what life would be like by the end of the year. Not even in my wildest guesses would I have guessed this though, that’s for sure.
Why was I anxious? It was my final semester of college. The place had been home to me. All the teachers, all my friends… I knew what to expect everywhere. There were these untold rules that bound me within that world and I could at least say I knew most of the rules and so I kinda understood the drill. But all the thoughts of what I would do once college was over was just really weird. Yeah, I was kind of excited, not gonna lie, but there was this weird feeling of not knowing what to expect and not knowing if I’d fit in.
Anyway, more than half of my semester got over away from my friends, at home, not being able to leave from this safe space. The walls of my room were my new friends and they’d see me more often than ever and you know like they say, “People who are meant to stay, will”? THAT happened. So before college was actually over, I already knew all the people who were gonna stick around for a while. So that’s great!
But also, in these very dark and sad times, I learnt that I worried too much about the future and didn’t enjoy the present. I worried so much about so many things but then COVID19 happened. Something which is wayyy worse than my worst thoughts and if I would have known something like this would have happened…. I would have lost it. The whole idea of staying away from my friends, not getting my warm, tight hugs and just sitting at home all day long and only connecting to the outside world via the internet… that would have seemed impossible. But you know what? I survived it. I survived way worse than I had expected and so now I tell myself whenever I’m worrying about uncertain things that I will survive it and will somehow get the energy to fight it when the time comes and to focus on what is right in front of me at that point.
Anyway, so now coming back to the reason why I haven’t been very active here. I started working! It’s been kind of tiring and I really do get VERY exhausted by the end of the day and even though I really do want to talk to all of you here through my blog, I have little energy to do so. In the weekends, I just wanna lay down for a while longer and talk to myself or chill with my fam (You’re fam too. But I mean physically, y’know?) or play the guitar and sing a little because that’s meditative or anything that keeps me away from the screen…. well apart from gaming because that doesn’t count. Shh!
But it’s definitely a thing I will eventually get used to like.. right now, I’m writing this, aren’t I? And I will continue to do so. I will try to get back to posting more often. But this whole thing gave me an idea. Actually the idea was given to me by a lot of you before but I never thought I’d need to implement it. The idea was to start an Instagram page. It makes it easier for me to post smaller shorter quicker content which passes by in my mind. I don’t know how I’ll do it or how it’s gonna work but I’ll eventually learn to! SO I’ve made a page already.
Follow and show some love alright? The handle is @ketcage
See you soon!
THANKS FOR READING. I MISS YOU ALLLLL.